While we are on the topic of allergies, I thought I would share this little story.

I really don’t mean for these blogs to be all about ME, but given that I was such a hot mess, I seem to have quite a bit of material to work with ?

I really love to wear eye makeup. I’m not sure why, it could just be some latent desire to be a drag queen (I’m sure I will get to the bottom of it one day), but I love to wear eyeliner and mascara. I don’t like anything else. Foundation sucks and I’m not keen on lipstick…

…but get this.

I haven’t been able to wear it for 15 years! I might put it on for a special occasion, but otherwise the itchy eyes and tired and watery feeling I would get just wasn’t worth the hassle.

Through Kinesiology and a little investigation in my unconscious mind, it turned out that I believed that eye makeup would make me look more beautiful (I could understand that) BUT I didn’t believe that I was deserving of being beautiful (oh boy, this old chestnut).

So let’s get this straight. I’ll itemise them so you don’t get lost…

1. ME- I believed that wearing eye makeup would make me look beautiful

2. My unconscious mind (the inner me that seems to be making all my decisions) – Didn’t believe that I SHOULD or DESERVED to be beautiful.

3. ME – My body REJECTED eye makeup with a variety of responses which included red itchy eyes, tired eyes and watery eyes based on my sub-conscious’ need for me NOT TO LOOK BEAUTIFUL.

4. The conscious, rational-thought me, said “Oh dear. I am allergic to makeup. I won’t wear that any more” (for 15 years!!!!!)

5. My sub-conscious says “Good. You don’t deserve to be beautiful. No make-up for you!”

6. ME – ?

Needless to say, I had no idea this was going on. I wasn’t AWARE of my unconscious belief about myself. 

Once I worked this out, it was actually quite a quick and simple process to fix. One Kinesiology balance later and I was wearing eye makeup — EVERY DAY! No itchy eyes. No watering eyes. No tired eyes.

Our bodies can respond in very weird ways to the most usual of things, based very much on what we believe – and for much of the time, we don’t even know these beliefs exist. They are programmed into our subconscious very early on in life…

…My belief of not deserving to be beautiful was set in at around age 7.

Worked it out at age 42. Yay me!

Does this sound like you?